Finally I will tell you the stuff I got from my birthday:

- Sailor Star Fighter Model Kit (Thanks to Yaten, who painted the most body for me! *huggles)
- book from Lian Hearn "Tales of the Otori I - Across the nightingale floor"
- letterbox with Starlights pictures from Michiru (She did the box herself. Thank you, Michi-chan!!)
- money
- something for the bath

That's it, I think.

I really HATE Model Kits!! It's hard to paint their bodies without throwing this thing away, because you overpainted something. T_T I hate them ...

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Your life in samurai Japan by rebelfilms
Username
Age
gender	malefemaledont knowits secret
What is your goal in life?	to serve my masterto kill someone in revenge for the massacare of my familyto stay aliveto die honorably in battleto preserve the purity of Japan
what is your job?	Samuraidaimyoartisangeishapeasantforign traderexecutioner
You will die...	While writing a poem about cherry blossoms
you will live...	As a travelling assassin
You will .......	Never impress the daimyo
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There is it again: EVIL ... <,<

What kind of Fushigi Yuugi Seishi will you be? by Dessi
Name/Username:
Gender:
Age:
Beast God:	Suzaku
Special Power:	Super Strength!
Good or Evil:	Good turned to Evil
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You are in an anime! What happens? by meteoric
Name
Age
What the anime is about	Magical girls
Genre	Action
Episode count	70
Your role	Secondary character
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Generate your Anime Style by Jena-su
Name:
Hair:	Never stays the same style/colour for long.
Clothes:	Simple, comfortable, everyday clothes.
Powers:	Wind magic
Special Features:	Wings
Sidekick:	Small fluffy animal that talks...usually too much.
Attitude:	Evil. Just...Evil.
Weapon:	Flamethrower
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It's scary how much those tests fit with me ... -,-
And it's REALLY scary that in most tests they say that I have an EVIL attitude ...

Sailor Moon Marriage (for girls) by lavenderswirl
Username
Engaged to	Seiya Kou
Married on	March 25, 2035
Have this number of kids	3
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I swear I only typed my name in and there was the marriage thing with Seiya!! I swear I did this test only ONE SINGLE time and there was Seiya! *dances happily around* Luv luv Seiya!! (>,<)

Tralalallalla! Chachacha!! Today my "Rose Revue" doujinshi arrived!! I'm so happy! *dances around* ^-^
The artwork is too CUTE, I swear! Seiya-tachi are so kawaii in SD!! They have animal tails and ears, too. If you want to see Seiya with mouse ears and a mouse tail with hamburgers in his arms, you only have to tell me and maybe I'll scan the image for you (when I have time ...). It's so DAMN cute!!! *has hearts in her eyes* Luv luv luv Seiya!! *goes crazy*
(Thanks to Usako for helping me out!!! *huggles you* (>,<) )

And lately I'm pretty obsessed with the Japanese group "Schwarz Stein", which means "Black Stone" in English (although it should be spelled "Schwarzer Stein", but the Japanese people seem to have fun playing with languages, although they really don't know nothing about languages (okay, my English isn't good, either, but never mind ... *sweatdrop*)). OMG! Although I just listened to only 3 of their songs, I love them! ^^

Love you, minna!

HIGH POWER! HYPER! (>,<)

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
Username
The quality that most appeals to you:	Empathy
In a survival situation, you:	Scream for help
Your hidden talent is:	Seeing the best in others
Your gift is:	Physical beauty
In groups, you:	Play an organisational role
Your best quality is:	Your generosity
Your weakness is:	Your overbearing nature
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Maybe I'll write more later. Today isn't really exciting ... -_-

Yesterday was terrible for me - I mean, my first day in school after my holidays without my friend. It seemed to me like everyone ignored me. It was a terrible feeling and I had to hold my tears back. I guess I'm a crybaby like Usagi *laughs* *sweatdrop*. Somehow I made it through class ...
At 4 PM I had to go to my private lesson in maths. My teacher recognized that I miss recurrent lessons and she asked me about it. Me, I didn't recognized it myself and I was a little bit stunned. She asked me if I had a problem with her and if I didn't liked her. I said that it wasn't her fault and so.

Today my French teacher wanted to see me after the lesson. She said that I missed recurrent lessons ... What shall I say? I was a little bit stunned *lol*. She told my mainteacher about it. She told me to come to her lessons for now. And I also have to show her my homework in every lesson. Teachers are like animals or something like that. They are leechs, that's it. You already feel like you have lost all of your strengh and then they come along and tell you to do this and that.

We also have to make presentations in physics in groups. No one wants to work me (they're ignoring me like I said), so I have to do it all by myself. I have to finish it until tomorrow, but I didn't have started yet. I think I won't make it until then, because it's a little bit to late for it.

It looks bad for me. Really really bad.

The only thing that made me happy in the past 4 weeks was when I got my maths exam back and a D laughed fom the paper back at me. Yeah, I'm really happy to get Ds in my maths exams. ^^;;

I guess, I have to study more carefully.

... all my troubles seemed so far away ... *sings*
It would be nice if all my troubles WERE so far away. But honestly I'm really depressed.
You know, I'm not very popular and wanted in my school. And I don't have any friends. Or shall I say "anymore"? Because yesterday my only friend in my class and in my school called me on the phone and said to me:" I'm not going there anymore. I have to go to another school for now." That's hella good, minna! Can you hear my sarcasm? She leaves me in this f*ckin class and school all alone!! This is great!
Yesterday all my emotions were summed up and I cried until night. My friend is leaving me behind in this school, this is not a reason for crying your eyes out, I know. And it wasn't the only reason. I'm just so ... desperate. I don't know what to do! I don't know what the future will bring, because my grades aren't really good. I can't stand being all by myself!! I hate to be hated!! I hate everything and everyone ...
A few days ago I really searched for some tablets and medicine in my parents' cupboard that could kill me! I didn't found any though.

Anyway ...

♥Sayuri and ♥Seiya

Will adopt two expensive girls. Pretend to watch television sweetly. Incite each other to love and fine works.

Orchestrated by ianiceboy

Who will you be stuck with at end of time? by chi_a_baidh
Your name is
Your sex is	MaleFemaleUndecided
Your favorite color is	RedOrangeYellowGreenBluePurpleBlackWhiteOther
You are stuck there because	you murdered everyone else
For _____ years	36
With
He/She will think you are	clever
You will	live in peace
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Who is this man? *drop*
Murdered everyone else? *lol* This could fit with me. *laughs evil*

LiveJournal Haiku!
Your name:	sayuri-p
Your haiku:	a girlfriend yet too is it because im so shy am i guilty what
Username:
Created by Grahame

I was reading the whole day yesterday (I'm a slow reader for your information). I read "Give a boy a gun" from Morton Rhue. It's a very interesting book. Did anyone read it, too?
I can see some coherences with my own life. Not many, but there are some. I'm an outsider, too, and it makes me feel unneeded and a loser in some way.
This book scares me, too. I can't believe people can hurt one another so much and because of that these hurt people can't take it anymore and become murderer. But somehow I can understand the actions from the hurt people. No one has a right to hurt someone and give him inferiority complexes.

What would your Anime life be like? by hearthlight
Name:
Gender:
Your looks:	Fangs and feral eyes.
Your best friend:	Friend? You're the Dark Loner.
Your powers:	No powers, just a magic sword.
Your beloved:	A valiant hero.
Your occupation:	Lookin' pretty.
Your ending:	Moving and life affirming.
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Fangs and feral eyes? Where come this from?

However I'm ill and I haven't been to school for the last 3 days. Sorry for not replying to other members posts!!

Your Bishonen Slaves(one may preform various roles) by DS2020
Name/Unsername
Age
Favorite tool for discipline
Sex Slave	Athuran Zala
Cook	Dearka Elthman
Housekeeper	Genjo Sanzo
Chauffeur	Omi Tsubyono
Massuse	Sha Gojo
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Top 3:
- Senjyu no Yume
- message - Shizuka na Sakebi
- Benibanatukiyo

I also love "Hoshimeguri" and some others, but the three songs above are my favorites. ^^

I got my Fumiko Orikasa CD today. I'm so happy. But I'm a little bit dissapointed, too. The songs sound really the same way (sound, voice ...), but I love it anyway.
I'd like to list my 3 favorite songs, but since I don't know much Japanese it's hard for me. *sweatdrop*
Ah! The CD Box included a DVD with a music video and making of, too. Now Rinne no Hate ni is in my ears and I sing it for 3 hours now - again and again.

I guess you all think I'm shizophrenic now, but today I'm happy again. ^^
I finally talked to Yaten and told her what was hurting me (okay, there's still something in my mind, but this isn't so important). Talking can be really helpful.
I don't trust her completely, but I think I will someday.

... what to do. My feelings are in a mess. For the last few days I'm feeling nothing but pain in my heart. I think I can't take it any longer.
I'm crying and crying ... I'm acting weird and shout at my parents that they shall go away and so on.
It has to do with Yaten (Sophie) ... I don't know if I'm in love with her. It's ridiculous though. But everytime she's telling me that she feels "save" with this boy and she's walking hand in hand with this girl called her "new friend", I'm totally jealous and it hurts me to death.
I'm alone now, she has friends. A year ago I was the one who had 2 friends with me and she was alone. Is this the punishment? Did I do something wrong that was too hard for someone else that I am so punished now?
I only want to be treated the right way. I only want to be loved and that it's this love is honest. I can't stand lies and so on anymore!!
I don't want to live anymore because I feel always used and betrayed.

... and I feel pissed off. She told me about her Anime-friends and that they're having fun. Doesn't she know that she's hurting me? Because of her I don't have my important friends anymore. Doesn't she recognize I'm lonely only because of her? Okay, maybe I'm guilty too. I know I am. But ... it hurts me that she only thinks about herself.
I'm really angry with me. I'm too coward to tell what my opinion is and what she's doing to me. I thought she liked me, but I feel abadoned and used.

Instead of learning French and doing my literature homework I tipp in here and upload my homepage. I think I have to do the literature homework nontheless, because my teacher (I'm still mad at him like I said before) is going to give us grades for this homework.
...
Or I'll skip the lesson tomorrow. *sweatdrop*

One of my Sailor Stars DVDs is actually damaged (yeah, yeah, I thought it was okay, maybe it was because it was monday or so ...) and I'm really in a bad mood because of it.

Today I wrote the math test - I was like: "Damnit! I studied so hard for it!", but it didn't help me ... I mean the studying ...
After the math test I actually didn't feel like learn anymore. Well, I drew the whole lessons.

Okay, I have to end now.

Then I'll write a maths test. I hate maths to death!! Friday I'll write the French test, too ... And then there's the German test and the English test in the next week. BUT ...

But tomorrow I'll buy Angel Sanctuary manga vol. 19 and 20, then I'll be happy again. ^^ And the reason for being annoyed yesterday was that I thought one of my Stars DVDs would be damaged. But now it's all okay again. ^____________^ I'm tired, but I'm happy ... a little bit ... kind of ... ^-^;; Nope, I'd say satisfied. I think it's that.

I only wanted to say this ...

... and nothing is in my kitchen that tastes goog ... *cries*
I watched a few Stars episodes today. I'd say my weekend is boring. *yawns*

I watched Seiya's episode a few hours ago. My mother saw some scenes. You know Seiya, she screams very often. My mother said that Seiya should shut up. I'd almost jump on her. ^^;; No one says something against my Seiya. *lol* But actually she really gets on my nerves in her own first episode.

Hmm ... I think I'll take a shower in a few minutes. Then I'll call Yaten and I'll also draw something. Ah! And Kiseki (my rabbit) have to go out of its cage, too ...
Does someone know the Kanji for "Kiseki"? I was only wondering ...

NOOOOOOOOOOO! My download broke up!!! After 2 hours it broke up!! *cries* T_T You can't do this do me, can you!? I spended this damn time in the internet only to finish this download!! Man, I hate it!!!

After getting my Sailor Stars DVDs from ebay today, I feel better now. I watched the first DVD yet. I couldn't live without them anymore. *lol*

School was boring today. We will play something like theatre in our literature club. I don't want to. I'm still mad with the teacher because he gave me only a C, although I wrote two Bs in the tests. This jerk. Literature is the only lesson I am good at. In art lessons I have only a C, too ...

My mother called me on the phone a minute ago. My parents had a little car crash, but nothing serious happened luckily. She said it was because of the snow that is falling the whole day.

I don't know what to write anymore. Today is boring. ^^;;